So I am just a little nervous!
I went to church today as usual, and the Stake President was there today for the other ward, and caught me in the hallway-I saw him coming and immediately wanted to run the other way-but that couldn't happen. Anyway, he wants to meet with me Wednesday night. Right away I said "ohhhhhh........I know what this is about!" LOL I have known this guy for a looooooooong time-since he was a young father (I was rather young when I met him too) and I was his wife's visiting teaching companion back then too. He was asking me what all I am doing-am I working, etc etc.........he's probably trying to get a "feel" for what all I am up to. He's a nice guy, but the thought of being put on the spot just freaks me out. I have nothing to hide, and I have done nothing wrong (as I also stated in the letter) but my goodness I know come Wed. I will be SO nervous!
I wrote the letter a few weeks ago.........Basically asking them what I need to do-saying I feel no spirit, and how I've done the things I have been asked to (reading scriptures, etc-the usual stuff they say to do), and have fulfilled my callings. I did mention I only go for my husband also.
I told them I question some of the doctrine (IE Joseph Smith) and how I have talked to 2 different bishops. This past week since I have read some essays, I wish I wouldn't have written some of the stuff I had in the letter, but I was feeling pretty desperate and didn't quite know what to do. So, the letter was written. Oh well, whats done is done.